THERE'S NOTHING GOOD ON T.V. AT 4AM

Also I can't tell the difference between the Update Journal and Submit Deviation at 4 AM.
Whee!
And a T-Shirt just scared the crap out of me. I think I'll take my Optimus Prime t-shiret and put it somewhere where it isn't staring at me like my mom.

I'm surprised I went all the way to December without writing a journal. I thought of writing one out multiple times over the months, but either I forgot or I couldn't immediately make one at the time.

So, new Pokemon games are coming out in March/April of next year (I know what I'm getting for my next birthday!) and they are remakes of the GameBoy Color Pokemon games Gold and Silver! This I find extremely delightful, since G/S/C were the first set of Pokemon games I got myself. I got Crystal on my first trip with my mom, and that kept my interest through the years. I went out yesterday and got myself a used copy of Pokemon Pearl in mild celebration (I sold my first one thinking I was no longer interested. D'oh!) And, uh, me and my friends at school are meeting regularly at our lunchtime in the library to play Pokemon D/P/Pt. c:

As the title says, it's the last day before school starts up again, and I've got anxiety.

I know I'll be fine and everything, but I just get a tight feeling in my chest when I think about it. It's also partially trying to figure out something to do on my last day of vacation. It's 11:33am, and I'm still thinking. Mom's asleep, and my Dad and brother are out on errands. I know I can go do something by mself and have fun, but I kinda want to do something with the whole family. Just -what- I want to do is the last thing I need to figure out.

I'm also facing my first WHOLE year of High School. Last year I came in veeeeery late (I was only in for three months) because of people saying I needed my birth certificate before I could go back into public school (which I didn't). I'm just worried it'll be too much for me to face a whole year.

All of this isn't helped by the fact I'm sitting on my bed with the laptop and typing this out when I want to go do something besides this. >_>

On top of not feeling good, I've got nothing to do.

I want to make a plush of RoE Eva 05 (since I don't have any money to get a Revoltech until the con), but there's barely any good refrences! What I can cobble together still isn't enough, and all the shots of her in the movie are in a near-dark setting for almost the entire time. I also don't seem to have any patience to make a half-decent sketch, not even some doodles. Feeling urpy and having no materials to make stuff is stressing me and making me even more urpy. DX>
Another contributor is that I can't play any of my Spyro games on the PS2 anymore. They're all PSX/PS1 games and it won't read them anymore, and the PSX we have doesn't work.

-sigh-
Just gonna be a stressful two weeks for me.
(I want some Hot&Sour soup)

San Japan is sneaking around the corner.

[link].

Costume A can no longer be done because 1)I don't have the proper time/money needed for it and 2)If I try to start it now, it won't even reach the half-assed mark on the cosplay scale.

BUT I have a Costume B, so all is good in that department. I just need to tackle getting an entry fee, spending money, orange wig, hair clips, and finish a plush. Not to mention calling my friend sand seeing what day we'd want to meet up. I'm not going back and forth from San Japan and home all three days. Gack.
And I still need to make inner arm + hand structures for the Plush, along with a billion other pieces I have yet to even draw patterns for (and painting it, too).

I'm just getting myself worked up. I'm sure I have enough time for all of this.

-takes a deep breath-